promises

promises.

I never do,
nor do i believe.
for they break,
like splashes of
water.

But in your words
i believed.
i still do.

you

You love me more than i do.

Cause your love breaks me down and 

again joins the pieces too.

I become so weak.

May be i dont love you that much.

I dont give.

That's why you are far.

smoke

If it was the smoke

that brought the dust
and the wind close,
what did the ashes
do?


Roads are smokey.
Cloudy walks.
White dreams.
Milky tears.
foggy surrender.
Incomplete shelter.
shaded snow.
underneath the rain.

two worlds

Two worlds.

A lonely me in you.
A you lost somewhere.


Two halves.
a half in me,
a half in you
that never makes one.


two trees.
standing parallel.
That never meet,
but in shadows
that needs a sun.
a sun that never
shines.

Door

I dont want the
sun to shine.
When the leaf
is dead,
why does the autumn bells ring?

Am waiting,
to turn into that
corner,
where you made
your home once,
and gave me shelter
from the rain.

That window,
i can see the drops
on the glass,
Looks like
the tears that
touched us
are paintied on
your photo
that hangs
in my wall
black and white,
and you are
outside,
with a key
that lies in me,
to that door
in-between.

Tell me,
i can always break
the door
as well as me
for the key.

weak

weak,

like the leaf in storm

a soldier

lost in no man's land.
divided
like that tear in your eye,
a leg inside you,
other on my hand.


broken,
like the lines in a leaf
green to yellow,
and brown to black.

disarmed,
like a sand in snow,
a water inside the ice
that cannot be killed by a sun.

Lost,
like a mirror in ocean,
shining in the day,
when strangers search
for her under the moon.



you break me down like the
shadows in sun And
I become so weak
that i dont know what to do
with the love i hold.

lights

Lightened streets,

empty heart,

yellow and red,

the sky burns

so does the night
and a part of me.


what i like is to stand at a distance and watch the game of lights,
of colors, of sky.

A distance.

A restless day.
Anger.Love.
And lonely night sleeps
with

Warm wishes.

clouds

When i say, am walking away.

how do you

happen to change the path?

Cant clouds just move away,

somewhere where there

is no sky?

Do you hold me,

cause somewhere

down am still holding you?

shadow

I was always with you.

to shade

you in the dark,

whispering

you of light

when its night.

All you can do is

bring a glass

and see

i am always with you

just the name changes

from

shadow

to refletion.

child

Today i saw my  father making

faces to make a small kid smile.

And i laughed

to see that kid in him.

certain joys are so pure.

Family- the love i hold i cant say.

smokey

If it was the smoke

that brought the dust
and the wind close,
what did the ashes
do?




Roads are smokey.
Cloudy walks.
White dreams.
Milky tears.
foggy surrender.
Incomplete shelter.
shaded snow.
underneath the rain.

Sleep

upon my hands

two angels laid.
lazy,
like the dreams
on cloudy castles,
flowers turned into buds
to hold
the fragnance
as they slept.


Like a small island
underneath the
roots of a tree,
there lied
a lost ocean,
just like that drop
of tear,
beyond her eyes,
which fell on my hand,
that came like
that bird turning
back to home
in winter.


A single drop
filled the holes
in me,
But why did my angel cry?


I kissed my angels
And my bleeding lips
turned into snow,
like red roses
in milk,
and a drop of tear
made them
pure
like the angels
golden wings.

And then she woke up,
and gave me
a flower :)
that will bloom
in snow,
and will hold
a summer
benathe the
winter.

the angels slept
yet dreams
remained with me.
strange

tired

Crisscrosses, triangles,

uncountable lines,
i shall keep the devils
and surrender you
the lucky stars,


Like drops from sun,
i will fall,
to glide on your skin
as breathes
i never
lived.


like rays from rain,
i will shine,
to wash away my footprints
that will
never
remind you
i was here.

But dont you leave my hand now
am tired of walking all alone.
I will never let them know
how we travelled beyond horizons,
these secrets, like anthills
will grow
to decay in me,
my angels and demons
will tell you stories
of how i waited for
you for ages,
watching the sun
giving birth to the moon,
but dont you leave my hand now,
am tired of walking all alone.
Am tired.




I have got a friend.

I can

Trust me, i can change the wind

to make every bit

of it reach near you

if you ever wish

it to come.

I

As the Rainbow fades

Something glistens in the eye
A speck of dust perhaps
That made me cry
~ kobita






A seed will grow,
from the sun and rain
in shade of autumn leaves
away from winter's breath,
to make a rainbow
that will never fade,
i will plant that in my soul,
never to breathe a wind again,


And never
will a
dust
be born
that will
make you
cry.

II

And years later

There are ripples on the still water
But the tide has been
And never again shall be


~ kobita.


A ocean will be born
among the white clouds
and not a single
drop of sand will stay,
A sea will rebel,
so will the ripples remain
But i shall hold the splashes,

for that
tide
to return
from
where
it came.

III

Was ever an ocean

so deep so dark?
Will ever a tear
On this ocean embark?
-kobita.






An army will uprise
like the winter rain
making a ladder from
clouds to earth
to bleed with the soil
and regain those leaves
that held your name
to defeat the ocean,
that i will hold in my fist,
for that
tear to
stand
upon
its
drops.

IV

As a flower dies



Who cares to cry


For the broken heart


Of a butterfly?


~kobita.






A white lily will grow,
from a bud of rose
that no one saw
to hold those bleeding colors
that were lost
among purple dreams,


And i shall save that flower,
between the pages of my eyes
for that
butterfly
whose heart
will
never break
away.

bleed

I bleed,

like the red sunshine,
And the water
won't hold my drops
this time.


I went near the river,
to return with splashes
that said,
how will i fill your voids,
when I myself have holes?
that even scares the hills
It called the wind
to show its wounds,
never realizing
it was just the
reflection
of
sun.
of me

words

when you dislike a thing,It gets hurt
it comes back to you to show how
beautiful it makes, and how empty your life can

be without it. - she said.

two

two angels
on my fingers
when did
i turn to a
flower?

Two scars
on my skin
and lips.
when did
you  kissed
them?

Roads were never so beautiful before.

a walk to remember

walking.
with no past
like the leaves
who do
not know
where the roots are,
without a shelter of present
neither with dreams of
future.

but buliding three
of them at
one time.

finding
ways like salmon fishes,
planting seeds of life
from death.

watching rainbows,
painting the sky,
holding your hand
i walked away
from me to
myself
and brought
a us in
you.

i dont want to write a poem.
for i did a lot of things
i never did before.

words cant say.

Nor can i,

for that door

you have opened

which i was searching,

 waiting ,

for me to be found.

a walk.

walking.
with no past
like the leaves
who do
not know
where the roots are,
without a shelter of present
neither with dreams of
future.

but buliding three
of them at
one time.

finding
ways like salmon fishes,
planting seeds of life
from death.

watching rainbows,
painting the sky,
holding your hand
i walked away
from me to
myself
and brought
a us in
you.

i dont want to write a poem.
for i did a lot of things
i never did before.

words cant say.

Nor can i,

for that door

you have opened

which i was searching,

 waiting ,

for me to be found

Remember

a journey on pavement and road.

unfold

A blackened rose

in my hand,

a broken me

for your lips.

A cup of tea

in my head

a few words

i said,

a goodbye

you left,

the letter

held

wont

unfold

again.

swear

something i swear today,
If they ever hurt,
and dont take
a chance to
understand.

I will kill this love,
and show
them what they never want.

bleed

I bleed,
like the red sunshine,
And the water
won't hold my drops
this time.

I went near the river,
to return with splashes
that said,
how will i fill your voids,
when I myself have holes?
that even scares the hills
It called the wind
to show its wounds,
never realizing
it was just the
reflection
of 

sun.
of me.

hidden

trust.

when i let you know about me,
keep that hidden,even if you have people
from whom you never hide,
or let me go.

safe

you[1]
your voice.
the way you said you feel
lonely.

I could have traveled
to you.

you[2]
your face,
the way you never said
what you feel.

I could have swapped
myself,
only if my holes
were less
than yours.

both of you.
be safe.

promise

i will fulfill your wish,
never mind i will live in streets,
but i will grandfather.
I will.

lost

with time.

shades

[photo by Thomas Harmon - Autumn Leaves]

From rays of rain,
to drops of sun,
winter's breath bite,
with a breeze of fog
and bud of snow
from autumn fall,
to spring's colors,
am walking away from
season's shades,
to remain as a leaf
that becomes
a mosaic of all,
and form a rainbow
devoid of seven soldiers.

you should.

somewhere down you

should come

and say

all i wish is you to be happy.

never heard it,

so i keep on forgetting that

it is the way i should be.

Honesty

You can only find true love

when you're true to yourself.

- a line picked up. not mine.

just me.

a messed up life, a miserable education,
an incomplete love, broken friendship,
a shattered trust, and.. and.. lots more
in a silence that seldom hurts.
 

if you gonna tell me be optimistic,life beautiful and stuff. go away.am not anti-life.
 there's a beauty in the dark side too. i love life.but these moments, this silence
i will share it here,for just me. may be to make me move ahead.remind me.

go,take a hike. I dont need to learn life is beautiful from you all.
May be am like that,but i knowam not a saddist.i dont keep blaming life for small reasons.
And am not asking you to shoulder my tears or stuff.

stay away, i always say that.

Yes

 I remember you held my little finger,when i felt as if someone taught me to walk, a lesson i learnt

for the first time in life, like you took me away from darkness.

 And today.

you took me to home.
a home.